I have a lot of questions around this cause I find it troublesome. The great Buddha taught us that what we seek materially, can only be answered by our true selves. I have been floating around this orb in space...not going forward or back...but trying to maintain. I think I know that I need a drastic change in order for me to be truly happy or happier.
First of all...although I am living in this material world, it doesn't mean that I like it. I think I know what my plans are for the next 10 or so years. I have been preparing for my exodus to a far away place that soothes my spirit and lets me live in the now.
Any who, recently I have been put back in touch with an old colleague from Japan. I guess I can't indulge in more emotional terms but....I can say that everything in my life has just gravitated towards going back to a picturesque mountain view and a couple hundred students. We regularly speak or in fact...facebook. Very simple conversation that I find add meaning to the simplicity of where I want my life to be. I have an intense need to escape my Jozified state of life or things. I am even having communication issues as I don't feel I fit into this construct any more. He makes me think of my life in a clearer way and even why I am still here. The strangeness of it all is that he just randomly appeared two countries away...very unexpected and dare I saw awesome.
I have given up hope fitting into this construct, cause I just can't believe my life is less of a blessing. I cannot dilute my human experience into labels, house parties and general South African culture. My spirit and life means more to me now than it has ever meant.
I think Goddess brings certain people into my life to remind me where I am supposed to be. And because my life is reflected in the dreams and visions I receive, why spoil a good solid foundation that has been handed to me.
I need Goddess close to me...there is a comfort in having nature/God/the creator close to me and my spirit.
O.k so all that aside...I am learning code at college, syntax...XML all that. And my grand plan right now is to figure out how I will use it for teaching and for my business in the near future. It is extremely hard....to a point I think it is punishment for me not following the Grandmaster's plan.
OK....so also that City Press article that got published that other previous Sunday....there have been random calls about it and I didn't think people read that paper a lot. But here is the article. If can't read it....let me know and I can attach it and send it.
